Focus

FOCUS

"There is no force greater to that of a determined woman"


you know what it's like to have all this stuff at your disposal during the holiday season.  so of course that means additional lbs. added to your number.  add getting sick with the flu to that.  you know what i mean.  only wanting to eat comfort foods when you actually feel like eating.  so add again to that number.  and when you aren't feeling well its so easy to just give up.  forget it.  throw in the towel, stick a fork in me, i'm done!  i know because when i can't climb my stairs without getting winded that's a problem.  i mean just monday i did a brick for my training!!  i swam, cycled and ran!  then squatted!  but tonight i'm sitting here getting refocused.  because i know i didn't loose 100lbs and keep it off for 4 years for nothing.  i took back control of my life, extended it.  but for the past 5 days i didn't care.  if i wanted to eat it i ate it because i didn't feel much like eating anyway.  and forget water, what's that?  had zero desire to drink any of it.  

it's just a reminder of how many set backs we all have on this journey to become the best version of ourselves.  the HEALTHIEST version of ourselves because in the end that's the most important part.  being healthy.  extending our lives because we decided to make a life style change.  DO NOT DIET.  that's the WORST 4 LETTER WORD i've ever heard.  that word scared me so bad.  i thought i had to eat only salads with fat free dressing.  i thought i had to eat fat free, low fat crap.  and i thought all those "skinny" women don't seem to eat anything!  man i was so wrong.  and i also failed over and over and over (FAILED wasn't the f word of the day but it seems completely appropriate to use).  so i developed that motto, "there is no force greater to that of a determined woman".  i made little decisions.  i didn't cut ANYTHING out of my eating regimen.  i only started eating half of what i would normally eat.  it was little victories.  then i cut all sodas out.  was done.  now i'm just a ginger ale girl when needed.  i also cut sweet tea out.  i will do a "splash" of sweet tea because i refuse to use artificial sweeteners.  it's what worked for me.  i had to figure out my body and not everything works for every body.  so figure out what works for you and don't let anyone tell you any different, they aren't you.  also don't compare your beginning to someone's middle.  you'll get there little bits at a time.  

so as i sit here letting you know where i am, its focusing.  focusing on what i need to do in the next week to get back on track for this half ironman training.  swimming is definitely going to be a big focus since it's my weakness.  after this holiday season and this flu i was feeling defeated but then realized it's just a minor setback and now it's time to FOCUS. 

#focus #fitness #fitfluential #fwordz #

Peace and Love, Dawn

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