Featured: 1 Corinthians 13:13

"And now these three remain:
FAITH, HOPE and LOVE.
But the greatest of these is LOVE.
This rock (courtesy of my brother) was from a jar given to me on my 40th birthday while I was going through treatment for breast cancer.

Instead of make this insanely long post about the last couple of weeks I figured this was appropriate for a blog post. 

Love, this is the best and most pure way to describe what it has felt like for the last couple of weeks.  Not to say I didn't feel it before because I have but it's been on a different level.  It's times like this that I draw the strength I need knowing the support system I have in place.  From my amazing family that was God given to the amazing family I picked out for myself I have truly been blessed. 
 
I have two mantras that I have lived by for quite sometime, always leave someone better than you found them and "Be a rainbow in someone else's cloud".   I believe in building people up, supporting them when they can't support themselves and a friendly smile and hello can go a long way.  (but if you know me that normally comes with a hug too).  The things I live by I have felt more than I could express.  Yesterday was just a wonderful example. 
 
There have been a few things that people have asked or seemed concerned about so I thought I would put it all out there:
 
 
1.  Are you ok with being "alone"?  I know what they are asking, they are talking about me being single.  The answer is pretty easy.  I may go to bed every night alone but never lonely because I'm not alone.  I have the most supportive family.  Even though it's just me and Trey at home; my daughter, mother, brothers and extended family are always there checking in.  My family that I picked for myself is always there.  I don't need a significant other to weather the storms, my storms are weathered by the love and support from my tribe. 
 
2.  How are you feeling?  The most honest answer to this question is I'm tired and I have days that I feel some pain BUT the best part about that statement is I'm tired and I have pain!  That means I'm still here, I'm alive and thrivin'.  I have my moments where I have to physically push myself and/or I get emotional.  I'm not emotional because I'm sad but emotional because of things like yesterday.  I'm a bit of an emotional being, I cry if I get too happy.  But all in all I feel good, good enough to embrace the suck with my crossfit babes. 
 

From the bottom of my heart I want to thank everyone of you for everything you give to me daily!  Believe me when I say your love and support are what keep me going.

peace, love and joy,
dawn
#togetherwefight
 
 

   

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