Featured: Cancer take 3

I hesitated to write and share this but after much thought it's something that needs to be shared if for nothing else to hopefully give someone else that glimpse of hope and faith that they may need. 

The "C" word has become a word that has been said and heard over and over in our house.  Last year my step-dad was diagnosed with a brain tumor.  Today he is doing great.  On Thursday, April 12th I got the call that I once again have cancer.

 

At the age of 28 I was diagnosed with two types of thyroid cancer, at that age there was a 3% chance of me getting this.  At the age of 38 I was diagnosed with breast cancer, at that age there was a 7% chance of me getting this.  Now at the age of 44 I was diagnosed with uterine cancer, a 5% of me getting this without my prior history and with was suppose to only be 10%.  They are finally going to do genetic testing.  

Faith
it does not make things easy
It Makes them POSSIBLE.
 
As a parent the first and only thing going through my head was what am I going to tell my children.  The last time I had this conversation they both panicked because they couldn't understand why it was happening again.  So of course this time they were even more concerned because why does this keep happening??  I don't have answers to the questions they have but I do have faith that I'm going to be just fine.  I will continue to live my life like I did last time.  This is just a speed bump.
 


 
A speed bump that didn't prevent me from competing two days after finding out and my team from taking SECOND place in our division at the battle of the ages this weekend.  A speed bump that hours after finding out I still went to the paint, pallets and pint night with a friend.  A speed bump that I didn't let interfere with my day at the ballpark with my son.  So many times people let the word cancer get in their head and consume them.  You can't do that or it wins.  You have to have your head straight before you go in for battle and doing that is half the battle.

Don't get me wrong there will be days that are not great.  I can tell you the worst ones for me will be when I can't be with my gym family kicking butt because that's when it will be a daily reminder of why I'm not there. Its going to be an insane inconvenience for me BUT at the end of the day I know I will be back.  It's just a speed bump.

So strap in ladies and gents, we are going on this ride again! 

 

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