FAITH

fAiTh..................

a bleeding heart

i swear i LOVE my runs some nights, it brings such clarity to me.  FAITH, this is a word i know all too much about.  i have faith in so many areas of my life.

FAITH when i lost everything to a house fire that we would be fine and God would take care of us.  He did.

FAITH when i had thyroid cancer i would get through it fine and be here for my kids to watch them grow and God would take care of me.  He did.

FAITH when i had breast cancer i would once again come through with flying colors and be here for my kids and God would take care of me.  He did.

FAITH when i decided to make a career change God would see me through it and I was making the right decision for my family.  He did.

FAITH when i decided to become a single mom God would give me the strength to continue on.  He did.

FAITH that my daughter is going to make good decisions despite being a teenager and God would watch over her and guide her in the right direction.  He does.

FAITH that my son despite his aspergers would accept who he is and will succeed in whatever he decides to do and God will watch out for him.  He does.

The ONE area of my life my FAITH is challenged in is love and loyalty as a set.  This is an area i find i struggle with more than the average person.  i believe it exists but it's like BIGFOOT to me, people have seen him but no one has caught him yet.  i've built up mile high walls with moats that have crocs living in them wondering if anyone is going to want to rise to the challenge to swim across and chip away one brick at a time but even if someone like that comes along i'm also going to wonder why in the hell would they want to go through all that?  And I say that but i also know i've been a fiercely loyal devoted giving person to the wrong people, when the right person comes along i can't even imagine how i will be.  I'm working on this faith and love thing on a daily basis.  It's probably one of the most challenging things I've had to work on but i know i will be a better person for it.

LET YOUR FAITH BE BIGGER THAN YOUR FEAR

peace and love, dawn

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