Fwordz

FORTUNATE........................... I love you more said the daughter.  No, I love you more said the mom, I saw you first. today is my first born's "removal day".  Yes she calls it her removal day because I had her c-section.  she makes me laugh wanting to call it her removal day.  most years she will ask me about the day she was born.  it's been something she's done for a long time.  my doctor induced labor with potocin because she didn't want to come out.  she was nice and warm inside as it was cold in January in Atlanta.  we were so close to the super bowl and everyone was concerned about the big game.  my mom, my nana, my brothers, angelique, john and cissy and i'm sure a few others that have escaped me right now where there.  i was in labor for over a day and i remember my doctor coming in and saying we can keep going this route or we can go ahead and do a c-section and i said cut me!  We didn't want to find out if she ...

Family..................... "In the blink of an eye, everything can change.  So forgive often and love with all your heart.  You may never have that chance again." These words rang true in my heart this weekend. i was fortunate enough to be able to meet my brothers in Raleigh, NC our hometown this weekend for some family fun.  it was their first UNC Tarheel basketball game!  see the 3 of us are BIG Tarheel fans.  i loved every minute of that game.  i loved the look on my brothers faces as we were there.  they were both in heaven.  i loved how at the end of each segment about Carolina on the jumbo tron they ended it with Dean Smith.  we met him once!  on a flight back home from NYC when we were all very young Dean and his family were on the same flight as my family.  my youngest brother, tony, and his daughter were running up and down the isles of the plane and tony pushed her down and kissed her.  needless to say my da...

FOCUS "There is no force greater to that of a determined woman" you know what it's like to have all this stuff at your disposal during the holiday season.  so of course that means additional lbs. added to your number.  add getting sick with the flu to that.  you know what i mean.  only wanting to eat comfort foods when you actually feel like eating.  so add again to that number.  and when you aren't feeling well its so easy to just give up.  forget it.  throw in the towel, stick a fork in me, i'm done!  i know because when i can't climb my stairs without getting winded that's a problem.  i mean just monday i did a brick for my training!!  i swam, cycled and ran!  then squatted!  but tonight i'm sitting here getting refocused.  because i know i didn't loose 100lbs and keep it off for 4 years for nothing.  i took back control of my life, extended it.  but for the past 5 days i didn't care.  i...

Welcome to Fwordz.  Lots of f words to toss around if you look at that photo close enough.  Tonight I embark on a new journey of putting my life out there in hopes of reaching one person. "Let your faith be bigger than your fears".  It really hit home with me and pushed me over the edge to get this thing started.  I text my baby brother and said help me now.  I'm ready to go. Fwordz.  Faith, fear, fragile, failure, fighter, faithful, forgiveness, forty, fabulous, fierce, fat, fitness, football, family, friends, fair, fun, flirty.  These are just a few of the words that encompass my life's journey to this point.  I know some of you are going to learn new things about me and might judge me.  I don't care. I'm going to get real about the girl on the left and how she got to that point in her life and real about the girl on the right and how she struggles every day to not get back to the girl on the left. Im also training for a half iron...