Fwordz

Fwordz: Fear of abandonment, Take 1 : "SHE MADE BROKEN LOOK BEAUTIFUL AND STRONG LOOK INVINCIBLE.  SHE WALKED WITH THE UNIVERSE ON HER SHOULDERS AND MADE IT LOOK LIKE A...

"SHE MADE BROKEN LOOK BEAUTIFUL AND STRONG LOOK INVINCIBLE.  SHE WALKED WITH THE UNIVERSE ON HER SHOULDERS AND MADE IT LOOK LIKE A PAIR OF WINGS" Worked that row machine. After a few therapy sessions I have a word to work through, abandonment. Abandonment, little did I know this word would be the source of all of my issues, my demons, my darkest concerns that spawned bi-products.  What I have learned so far is this has only affected my intimate relationships not my relationships with friends.  I have also learned the beginning of my abandonment issues started when I was 12 when my Dad died unexpectedly.  So this is what they refer to as unintentional abandonment because he didn't leave on his own, he didn't leave me because he wanted to, he didn't have a choice.  He wasn't sick so it wasn't something we were planning on happening either.  He was however in NY taking care of his mother who had cancer and was dying, he had been gone for ...

Fwordz: Featured word: Transformation : "For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone.  The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything...

"For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone.  The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes.  To someone who doesn't understand growth, it would look like complete destruction." You all have seen my transformation, my physical transformation and watched me live it for quite awhile now.  If you've ever been in that position you know how mentally draining it can be to be patient enough to achieve your goal and I'm still not where I want to be.  I'm content with myself in my physical journey.  Yet there are other transformations. As I sat on top of this mountain I was reminded how small I am in this large thing we call life.  I watched hawks soar, planes leave tracks in the air and people coming and going hoping I would leave my perfectly placed spot.  I like the Pinnacle at Crowders Mountain because on one side I can sit and see the big bad towns of what I can only guess are Kings Mounta...